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Sometimes when you think too much, you will realize that you actually don't think about anything
Your mind is just going on a circle, which you will end up at nothingness

All of this procedure to apply to go to USA is making my head go round and round and round and round...(infinite loop)
I'm very weak at handling things like this
Maybe it is easy for you guys, I envy you all
I try to understand it and do it by myself, but it always go worst
When I try to ask help from certain people, then they will go like "You can't even simple do tasks like this??", more or less the same

I should do something with myself
My brain is at total blank and will likely shut down by itself

Maybe I should buy Self Management for Dummies (if there are any)


  1. when you have reached adult stage, you have to realize dependency on parents is childhood memory...stand up by your own as it's also a preparation b4 going to US..after all, at there you really need to be independent..i mean, really..

  2. I know that, but it just hard too accept it b4 this...

    thanx acap, I (must) try to have what it takes to be more independent

    eceyh sumer dah speaking skrg


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