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I went out to One Utama Mall
The initial plan was to go out with Raihan only
But when I saw Helya on Yahoo! Messenger, I decided to invite her along
Because my chance to meet Helya is not always there

Raihan - My current classmate at INTEC
Helya - My former classmate at MRSM TGB

Of course, I was kinda worry if they couldn't get along
But both of them are very friendly, so there shouldn't be any problem


We decided to watch a movie
While Helya went to toilet, Raihan and I went to buy tickets
We agree to watch Bangkok Dangerous

After the ticket had been bought, I tried to call Helya, but she didn't answer the phone
So I guess her phone was left somewhere...

It was true after all, she left her phone in my car...
"Take the key and go lah"
Nasib baik la terjumpa dia tengah jalan...

and then we went to the cinema (of course)
we bought two bowl of popcorns
Helya ate 50% of both of it...
munching j…

Message to My 'Angel',My 'Devil'

I hope you are reading this


No matter what you do

Don't be sad

There are many things and success await you in the future

If you don't want me to be sad,

you too,shouldn't be sad


Don't ever hide the truth from everyone

Open your heart to someone that you can trust

I had enough already, and I don't want to see you hurting yourself

Don't ever say something that you don't truly mean

Are you alright?...

No matter how much I hate you, I still care for you

Don't do anything stupid unless I know

You hear me?!

I don't give a f*** about what your reasons

Just...don't keep it to yourself,ok?

You have friends, and also future

believe me, believe in yourself

I hated you enough for what you did to me

So don't make me hate you more for what you do to yourself

With Me

I don't want this moment, to ever end,
Where everything's nothing, without you.
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile,
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

Through it all, I made my mistakes.
I stumble and fall,
But I mean these words.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go.

Thoughts read are spoken, forever in doubt.
And pieces of memories fall to the ground.
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go.
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

All the streets, where I walked alone,
With nowhere to go.
Have come to an end.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go.

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you don't know what you'r…

Hurt, but Still Happy

It begin at 20/08/2008

It ends at 20/10/2008

You hurt me

But you don't want to see me hurting

For a while

I wouldn't be able to listen to your voice

I wouldn't be able to look even a glimpse of you

I wouldn't be able to contact you

Simply, I just don't want to do it even if I can

Because it hurts so much

Even by just looking at your diary makes me hurt

I couldn't say "I'm sorry"

I couldn't say "Thank you for everything"

It still hurt, you know

You did told me

You afraid of getting hurt again

But it turn out you are the one who hurting me

kinda irony

It's alright my dear

I don't blame you

I know

It IS hard to find the right words and the right moment

I know

You not doing this on purpose

I know exactly

when you are telling the truth or lying

I know too

When you have something in your mind that you don't want to tell me

Most importantly, I know

that you never want to see me hurt

I must say goodbye for awhile

Don't contact me until I say you can



A day without the sun...

I don't like it

Dunno why

It just made me feel gloomy too



What is this feeling?...

...can someone tell me?...