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Today I feel like I am a total loser. Why? First of all, I overslept that I didn't came to video game lecture. Damn. This is the only class that I shouldn't miss because we will have quiz at the end of every lecture. So, I already missed 5 marks. *sigh* I hate myself right now

Even though I didn't make it to the lecture, I still went to discussion session. But it turned out to be worst. I only sat silently, not responding to anything. I don't know why, I was totally blur. Until today, I still haven't talk a lot in the discussion. This is not how I imagined it to be. I really wanted to be actively taking part in talking, but instead I just become stupidly passive. There's many thing that I should change about myself first. I hope I can make it.

No more complaining, since I am the only one that I can put the blame. Keep moving forward and keep improving yourself Zafree!

Added on 1640 2/3/2010

I think I had catch a cold, and somehow my right ear canal is blocked by something


  1. you can still change. march just comes in and there's a long road ahead. aku punya result midterms teruk gila ;((( it's my fault back then. so, let's change towards a brighter side.

  2. takde aper2 pun yg terlambat kecuali kalau tak berubah sekarang~ ko pun jangan buat silap yang sama lagi k? :D Thanks coco!~


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