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Don't Mind Me, Ignore Me For Some Time

(EDIT : 1835 11/10)

I am lying to myself by pretending to be mature
But it made me look more childish
I am running from my true self without realizing it

I claim to be an observant person
But I say something without thinking about the consequences
My anger and hatred drove me to do that

I claim to be independent
But there is someone that I always depend on
Now that person is gone, I hope that there is someone out there who can help me forget that person

I claimed to not fall in love again after I had been hurt by the last person
But when someone else try to enter my world, I let that person be
I guess all I need is someone, not just specific one

I always want to win in everything so that I am better than others
But even I don't know what am I competing for
It just made me look that I wanted attention so badly by winning

I guess I'm getting sick


  1. man...i'll be glad if u r willing to share your worries with me...

  2. lelaki soleh takkan mengalah hanya kerana cinta seorang perempuan.

    be strong,bro. u promised me before, right?

    salam ziarah~

  3. adam - owh tade aper2 la...tapi kalau ader aper2 aku luahkan aa kat ko k?thanx

    jeep - nie tade kaitan ngan pompuan la...ish ko nie.anyway i'll remember that.thanx

  4. ko masih normal,kn? xkn fall in love ngan laki pulak? *wonder*

  5. normal lagi la...naper x percaye?hehe


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