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I Have Feelings Too, Don't Worry

The moment you took a step away from me, I started to gain the time and space that I needed

I didn't feel the uneasiness anymore
I feel that I can grow again
Do things that I want without limitations
Take my own time without limitations
I feel very free

I guess that is all I need

We don't need commitments; we are still young to be in serious relationship
We don't need commitments; there are still a lot of opportunities and possibilities in front of us
We don't need commitments; we are still young to make decisions about relationship
We don't need commitments; there are a lot to think, especially about marriages*

We can grow to become a better person,
Without limitations and expectations of a lover;
We can grow our abilities,
Without limitations and expectations of a lover.

The moment you took a step away from me, I felt that I lost something

Who says when we are in love, we need to be in relationship?
Who says we can't be just friends?
Who says we need to nurture the feelings right now?

We plan, but God has a better plan
We will accept His plan, whatever it might be

I really want you to be with me
Welcome back to my life

*Yeah, what is the purpose of being in relationship but never had a thought about marriage? If not, then we only be in relationship in order to satisfy our own desires and lust


  1. makan ayat aku je...wkaakak...

  2. haha ader aa skit2 diambil dari ayat ko...tapi aku x ingat yg maner...

    tp dah di-paraphrase


  3. rajin kau update blog skrg ni ye.

    by the way, action speaks louder than words, tak gitu?

  4. sebab dah ok dgn most situations kat sini~

    If I post this one year ago, it won't have the same meaning as it is now
    Experiences and a lot of deep thoughts = what I had posted :)


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