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Lately I'm just not into writing anything in here, as I am not really into anything. Well, anything besides playing games. Maybe because I will be going back to Madison next week, and there are still a lot of unfinished problems there. I want to go back there as soon as possible, because I have a lot of things need to be done: moving out, buying utensils, foods, books and many more.

But it's ok, I think I need to be more appreciative of what I have right now rather than complaining about what I don't have. So this week I want to spend more time with my families, and today we will be having iftar at a hotel. Yipee!

I guess I do have something to tell anyway. Last week, I wrote an article at a Malaysian gamers website just for fun. To make it short, the owner of the site re-posted the article at, a gaming website too. I was surprised to find how much comments it received, though I'm sure most of the user didn't even read the article haha.

Here's the link, you can read it if you want. But it is about gaming, so I don't blame you if you find it boring.

I think that's about it for now. I am okay right now, but I'm missing someone so much. Maybe that's why I don't feel inspired to write anything lately. It's hard not to care. But a friend of mine said:

"Best friend is not the one who be there for you all the time. He/she will give you your time and space when you need it, and will be standing in front of the door, waiting if you ever need help" (Azrul, 2011)

I want to be that kind of best friend


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