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If Things Go On Like This

I know, that I will never change, no matter how much I wanted too. I just can't.

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Changes shouldn't occur drastically. It's a slow and long process. Will I be able to change one day? Why do I feel like those eyes want me to change as soon as possible? I am tired, with those eyes looking. Or am I the one who have been putting the pressure to myself?

I don't know what is wrong with me. Am I overly emotional for a boy? Am I not suitable for a change? Will stay this way forever?

Like I said, I thought everything has settled. Now, even MARA decided to not give me my allowance for this month, after they said that they did accepted my request to continue my scholarship. I don't really care, but for how long will I make my parents going through hardships because of me? They must be really sad with me.

Am I asking you too much when I just want you to reply to me once?... =(

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Comments

  1. pergi la cari kerje.. at least boleh tolong parent ko.

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  2. if you yourself believes that you can't change, don't expect others to believe that you would change!

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  3. - maybe bukan this sem kot

    - I give up on making others to believe that I will change. Much less stress when I don't think about it

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