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I Really Wish For a Stronger Heart...

I really appreciate how you try to forget all my wrongdoings in the past and try to be in good terms with me, after all that had happened. I am really thankful to have someone like you in my life. I really am.

I really want to repay all that by giving you your time and space...But I am ashamed with myself...Why can't I have a stronger heart and the ability to believe? Why am I like this...I feel very bad about myself...

I want to talk to you. I want to tell you everything. I want to hear your stories.

Why can't I just let yourself be free, having your own time and space...

I really hate myself


It's really hard to distract myself when all I can think about is you. I only can hope that I can endure this.


  1. it's really hard trying to make up with a person if he/she refuses to do so. if only you working it out, trying all out to make things better but the other person simply ignore you, you just know that you can't do anything but to let go. he/she will come back if he/she needs you or loves you whatsoever. yes, this is easy said than done. but really, there is nothing you can do if the other party simply ignores you. so,slowly, let it go.


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