If there's one thing that will make me wish I could die right now, it would be my debts. With a friend, with my parents, and with MARA. I will write a will so that my life insurance (if there's any) will first be used to pay all that. I'll probably plan a suicide that will look like accident. It's hard to do it though with my current knowledge, but there are a lot of inspiration I can get from.
What pressures me the most is the deadline. But without it, I will be taking my sweet time to pay for them. Geez. That's why our religion urges us to pay our debts as soon as we have the money. I am a terrible borrower, I need to realize that.
I know, dying won't change anything. As long we are alive, we still can change something about our live.
I hate my life right now, I hate myself even more. But that's more the reason for me to keep going and learn from my mistakes. Not everyone can wait though.
Be strong only is not enough. Do it.
-Random Rants-
What pressures me the most is the deadline. But without it, I will be taking my sweet time to pay for them. Geez. That's why our religion urges us to pay our debts as soon as we have the money. I am a terrible borrower, I need to realize that.
I know, dying won't change anything. As long we are alive, we still can change something about our live.
I hate my life right now, I hate myself even more. But that's more the reason for me to keep going and learn from my mistakes. Not everyone can wait though.
Be strong only is not enough. Do it.
-Random Rants-
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