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Ada Saja Benda Nak Complain

Sekarang aku berada di Hotel Brasmana, Kuala Perlis (betul-betul depan jeti nak ke Langkawi). Sebab? Ada kenduri kahwin anak kepada kawan ayah aku, so aku dengan tak rela hatinya mengikut. Yang membuatkan aku tak rela nak ikut ialah sebab aku tak suka pergi ke tempat yang tak ada orang aku kenal. Ini memang penyakit aku daripada dulu, dan berkaitan jugak dengan pengalaman sejak kecil.

Sejak dulu lagi aku tak suka nak ikut family aku pergi ke mana-mana event yang takde kaitan dengan aku. Sebabnya, nanti aku akan ditinggalkan keseorangan dan kebosanan. Parents aku mestilah akan berborak dengan orang-orang yang diorang kenal, dan takkan la aku nak menyampuk sekali. Dan semestinya aku akan bawak segala game aku (PSP, DS, 3DS) tapi tak dapat la nak main depan orang ramai, lagi-lagi time kenduri. Tersangatlah biadab di situ. So aku takde choice nak buat apa-apa. Duduk diam-diam, makan, pandang orang sekeliling, usha awek yang confirm takkan ada kaitan di masa akan datang. Serius bosan ok. Daripada aku kecik sampai la sekarang, kalau ada apa-apa event yang takde kaitan dengan aku, mesti aku kena tinggal sorang-sorang, dan sampai sekarang jugak la aku tak suka nak follow family aku pergi event yang takde orang aku kenal.

Tapi takpe la, pengorbanan kecik jer pun. Tak dapat nak dibandingkan dengan pegorbanan mak bapak aku sejak aku kecil.

Tapi aku tetap dengan tak suka, sebab aku tau aku akan kebosanan. Haha ok sekarang aku rasa aku memang childish.

Takde kaitan: nie pemandangan daripada bilik hotel aku


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