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Midnight Thoughts

Ideas usually come during midnight, or is it? At least it is kinda true in my case. How about you guys?

Anyway, this night, suddenly I feel like talking about my studies here. Not exactly about my exams, it's more about why am I here, in the US right now.

Until my SPM year, all I did was following what was set for me. Like for example, I went for boarding school because of my parents, I applied for scholarship because that's what my teachers recommended, and more. At one point, I did question all this. Like, where is my own path? Is this really the path that I want to take? I did talk about this in one of my post, but I'm too lazy to search for it haha. I don't know why I was so rebellious. Maybe that person's ideas and thoughts were very contagious to me.

But anyway, now that I think about it, even if my path right now is not the one I choose, there are still a lot of time for me ahead, even after graduating. I can imagine, that someday after I graduate in UW Madison (InsyaAllah), I will become a lecturer. I really love teaching, and mostly due to the fact that I became a facilitator for some Olympiad Mathematics Camp with Suhaimi Ramly. Even my parents support me on this :)

What I'm trying to say is, I'll try not to complaint on the path that I'm taking right now. I want to continue on this course, even though this is not exactly in resonance to my likings (mathematics). It's good to pursue something that we haven't tried yet. I don't know if I convey my message really well. Basically, less complains, more actions!

(If what I write is very messy, then it must be due to the sleeping pill that I took just now. I'll edit tomorrow probably)

Good luck for your finals~ My prayer will always be with you


  1. haha olimpiad ngan abang suhaimi...
    a good memory...

  2. of the best actually! bila lagi la dapat peluang :(


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