This semester is the worst for me in term of my performance in exam, and that's all to it. Since I am in a university, my whole life will be depended on the final results. My question is, is the GPA really the right measure of my performances?
First of all, this is not an excuse for me getting a low results. Just to let you know that my result mean the end my study here in University of Wisconsin-Madison if I do it again for any coming semesters. I am not ashamed of my result because it is low, but I ashamed at the fact that I didn't study for the semester. The reasons?
1. I don't want to study the subjects that I don't like
Ok, this is my own mistake. Really. But it is the fact. Why study for the things that I will forget in two or three weeks after the semester ends? The true thing is I don't want to study the subjects just for the sole reason of graduating. Imagine how you studied a lot for a subject that you don't like, just for pre-requisite or requirement, then you forget what you studied after the exams. I say that either you choose to not study the subjects or make yourself to like the subjects.
2. There are no math subject
Mathematics is the pure motivation subject for me. No math, no good result. I know that it is not an excuse, but math is in the top of my Sincerely-I-Want-To-Study-This-Subject list. Without mathematics, my motivation is also not there. Usually math subjects are the enhancer of my GPA, so it is not surprising that I didn't get good result without math. I learn that either I force myself to survive without math or don't go into a semester without math.
3. Play too much video games?
I don't know if I should put this in the list because I don't think I play too much. But I'll try to play less games.
I don't think there's a reason to put my self in so much misery just because I didn't get good results. First of all, our life doesn't depend solely on our results in exams. I don't want to get too caught up in the mind set of we couldn't get happy in life if we don't get to graduate and don't have jobs. Is our happiness and success in life truly depend on our achievement in exams and getting a job? I don't think so. That's why I think I shouldn't be too sad about my bad result. But I need to perform in the following semesters because this is the path that I chosen to improve my life :)