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This miniscule being has something to say from bottom of his small heart

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Dear summer semester

It is only for month that we were together

But there are abundant of events that I could not forget

I get to know more people

Involved with many activities

But in the same time

I lost many things

My emotions were unstable

You really gave a big impact in my life

It hurts

Really hurts

I learnt a lot from you

Thank you

Dear friend

We are friends since our first meeting

I really envy you, on every aspect

You have everything that I always wanted

But you had never been boastful or looked down on others

That's why I really enjoyed being around you

I love it when I can say everything that is on my mind to you

Even the craziest idea, you will listen to me

But things never meant to go smooth all the time

I made the biggest mistake ever

I never knew that what I did had an effect on you

You can't accept my way

Yeah, I never blamed you on that

I should be respectful and never did it

But

I never could accept this one 

I thought that you can say it straight to my face

Suddenly, you just seems far away

You never said it to me

I was wrong

I should never expect people to always be like I think

Maybe I knew nothing about you

My life isn't the same when you are not around, you know

I know

It is my fault that I lost a great person as a friend

It was never the same

I admit

That I love you

Owh

Maybe that is too gay for you

You never liked it from the start

I should realized it sooner

I'm not as smart as you to think for myself

I am feelish after all

I'm sorry

That I made your life more 'gay'

I really wanted to talk to you

But I find it so hard to do it

I'm still mad

It's not you, it's me

Dear friend

Although we rarely met

There are a lot of things about you that I heard

We share some things in common that it's easy for us to talk to each other

Initially, I was kinda afraid with you actually

But as we get to know each other better

I find it's easy to talk to you

You always help me with a lot of things

Especially envolving my feelings

Yeah, you helped me a lot

I'm thankful that you are there

Your words are harsh, but I never rejected it

But you know

Don't ever assume that you know everything

Yeah, you never said it

But you meant it

Maybe I'm emotionally worst than yours

But I know what I'm doing

You should know her better than me

You should never talk about her like that

You want her to change, but don't assume that you everything about her

I know that you have known her for a longer time than I am

But I never thought that you would say something like that

For a while there, my impression towards you had changed

You want others to listen to you, but have you ever listen to what others say about you?

You are emotionally better than me, you should know

I thank you for all the things that you have done

I hope that we are still friends

I still have a lot of things to talk to you with

Dear myself

I...

I never knew you that well

Sometimes, I really hate you

You never knew what you were doing

You never knew that you always hurt others

Maybe you were never meant to love others

Maybe you were never meant to be loved by others

Maybe you should start thinking of leading a solitary life

So that you would never hurt others

So that others won't have to waste their time on you

So that you will be all alone

I hate you

I HATE YOU!!!!!

Please

Change your way of life

I'm begging you

Or do you want to hurt others again?

You really love to hurt others aren't you?

F**k off

Stay away from others, you hear me?

Don't show yourself until you have changed

Please

You just made other people's life worst

What about all your promises?

You never fulfilled them

Urgh

You really make me feel gross you know

Maybe your existence were never meant to be

Goodbye for now

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This miniscule being had done saying

He need his time to be emotional sometimes