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About You

I always thought that you are the best out there
You are perfect
You are better than anyone else
You know what to do when facing problems

I always thought that you are different
You think differently
You see things in another perspective
You have things that normal people don't

We do a lot of same things
The fact is, you are always better than me
People always talked about you
People always admired you
I was always over-shadowed by you
I became envious
But in the same time, I always respected you
That I also wanted to be in the same league as you
I tried to become better, because I always tried to catch you

I forgot that you are also a human
With feelings and emotions
That sometimes are affected by emotion

I forget that you are just a boy
That sometimes you are childish
There are things that you don't know how to handle

People change with time
Is it me, or you, who had changed?
Well, it doesn't matter
Maybe we were never meant to walk in the same path

Remember Introductory Speech?
I chose to give a speech about my personal experience
Once, I regretted because I thought I should give a speech about someone important in my life
But now, I regret that I regretted

I had apologized to you once
Now, I want to say that I am truly sorry
I truly regretted about what happened
But I am disappointed because you didn't settle it like a man
So now I do it the same way as yours

You are still my friend
But I wonder if I am still your friend


  1. abby - at least penulis dier faham :)

    raihan - owh...blom ader keberanian

    acap - adakah ko bersikap sarcasm?
    wan - elele jeles ke bang?hehe


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