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In The End...

It feels good after releasing what you have held inside your heart all this while. I'm pretty sure letting your feelings out aren't the best way of coping with stress (I've read it in one of the Cracked articles but couldn't find it), but for now, that will suffice.

Sometimes, it is not about letting everyone know that we have problem. It just that we want someone to tell us that it is okay to feel weak sometimes, that it is okay to be at our rock bottom. It's not like we will forever weep and keep being sad. We are human after all, as we have feelings, and we cannot completely close our ears from listening to negative talks. There are times where we just feel sad, and it cannot be said with words or treated with reasons. That is just how human are.

Then, there's no one else responsible to make us happy. Happiness is an internal thing, it comes from within ourselves, not from anyone else. If we are happy from the inside, then it is easier for us to be happy from external sources.

If we don't take care of our hearts, then who will? Even the person who you trust the most will hurt you, unwillingly or not. Never let the responsibility of protecting your heart falls into someone else. If that person hurts us too, then we will find a hard time to find our own strength again.

We need to be strong, and be happy with ourselves. Don't feel so down and quick to feel sad.

"So do not weaken and do not grieve, and you will be superior if you are [true] believer" (Ali 'Imran, 139)

In the end, we have ourselves, and we have Allah watching over us.


  1. Salam. HI Zafree. I came across your blog while blog-hopping and I keep coming back ever since to read more of your updates. Love your writing style. On a personal note, atm I am going through a rather similar situation as yours and I definitely can relate to some of your thoughts. If I'd like to ask some question, do you mind if I email you or something? whichever your preference.. Thanks and please take care. Rgrds

  2. Salam. Hi SM. Thanks for reading my blog! I'm almost sure that nobody ever read my blog hehe. Yeah I don't mind if you want to email me. You can do so by contacting me to my email here:

    Thanks and take care too!


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