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It's natural for people to care about each other, and some care about others more than they care about themselves. Then you have some people who really want to show that they care. When you care about someone too much, it will become annoying. People need their own time to do their own things. Nobody like to be watched 24/7, no matter who did that to them.

The same thing when you don't care at all. You thought that you are giving freedom and space for themselves. But to them, you look like you hardly care, when that is not the case. You care, of course, but you are just afraid that you will care too much.

There's someone that I really care, but I cared for her too much as I'm afraid I don't care enough.

There's also someone that I want to care, but I'm afraid I'll care too much so I never showed how much I care for her.

Too much and too little, that can be applied to almost everything. It has always been said, but moderation is the key.

In another note, don't try to be so selfless. Taking care of yourself is important too. After all, you can't help others when you can't help yourself. I remember a friend of mine said that as you get older, you will need to be more selfish. I don't know the true meaning behind that, whether if it's true for everyone or if it's just situational. But I know there's someone that I need to be more selfish and less selfless, and my life did get better when I'm being selfish.

If there's someone I would like to be, it will be the Main Character for Persona 3 (and maybe 4). Just reply a few words but still can show to others how much he cares for them. Dream on!


  1. Eg: Yousuke and Souji.

    >Punch him in the face.
    >Best friends forever.

    Dat cabbages.


  2. Don't think about it, and you'll do fine~



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