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Too Many To Choose

After playing Persona 3 Portable for 8 days straight, and total of around 60 hours, I will end playing it by at most another 3 days. I am at the last part of the game and about to confront the last bosses.

But my old habit gets to me again. I stopped playing it. This is kinda normal for me if I knew a game I played is going to end. I don't like to end a game, since, well, it's going to end! I don't have any particular reasons, and I think it is one of my bad habits.

If I can think of one reason, it would be because there are a lot of things to do at the end of a game, especially JRPGs like Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Shadow Hearts, and in this case, Persona 3 Portable. In P3P, the game has its own calendar, and you progress the in-game days and months. Now that I at the final month, there are a lot of things that I can do. Social Links, side quests, and optional bosses are some of them. When I think about many things to do, I kinda turned off. That's why I don't really like playing games that open up a lot like Grand Theft Auto IV. Not saying that GTA IV is a bad game, it just that I am not keen of open world games. When I have too many choices, I usually looked away.

I hope that I don't make the same habit in real world. Now that I think about it, I did it once, and it is one of the big and important decision/choices.

It was during 2008, after I had received my SPM result, and I need to decide where I should study next. My result was enough to get me to apply a lot of different scholarships. But what I did was I only applied for one scholarship. My reason was that I am too lazy to apply to different scholarship and I didn't want to choose. I get a good scold from my mother after that, but I am lucky enough to received the scholarship (convertible loan) that I applied.

What I written so far has deviated from what I want to write originally, but, owh well, what the hell. At least I know that I hate making choices, but I can't keep being like this forever. I may not be as lucky as I was in the future.

..Off to finishing Persona 3 Portable


  1. you hate making choices but you did give me some choices.
    aci ke?

  2. With me don't like making choices doesn't mean I will think what others feel when I give them choices.

    Just like when you don't like others to hit you but you like to hit others. (weak example though)


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