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The ball that I threw to others had bounced and gave me the impact

Alright, things here is not always sunny and bright, but I need the sunshine, just as everybody else need it. Dark and gloomy is not going to be my style, unless I had been engulfed within in. That's why, it is either I find the light or I'll shine myself.

All my post before is not as "emo" as you said or thought, but seems the thoughts had attracted the "emo" charges, I feel like becoming one now
You said I'm emo? Well, I'm the real deal now.

Why can't you said it in front me? You chose to tell it others before me behind my back
Can't you just face your problems directly?

Why can't you accept my apologize? I'm not making things worst
Better than you who never apologize and admit you mistakes

Why can't you just have faith in me? I'm tired with the pressure

Why can't I just shut down all the negative feelings and live happily?
Always smile to each other?

Are we forgetting what it means to become a friend?

I, you, he, she, they, and we
We all are losing it
The tie that bond us all
Called friendship


  1. haha post ni mcm mendalam je walaupon aku x phm..aku pon agak emo hihi

  2. aku pun emo gak kalo dah x tahan...haha


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