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Change To Prove

As we go on with life, we will go through a lot of phases. We overcome difficulties and challenges, we taste defeat, we achieved sweet victory, and we meet people of different backgrounds. All the little things that we do and experience will change us on the inside bit by bit, and comparing ourselves with from where we begin, we'll realize we have changed a lot.

Usually, teenagers are the one who will go through the important phases in life which will determine on what kind of adult they will be. From my experience and observation, this is the time where they are searching for their own worth. All those hormone rush will make them be more prone to what others say about them and they also have the tendency to risk themselves for the rewards they don't know they are looking for. Some will succeed in finding themselves, and some need to fall a few times before they realize who they really are.

The search for "who I am" is wonderful, as you will do everything in order to know yourself better. You'll do some stupid things, or some unexpected actions that will make you wonder in the future "why did I ever do that?" and you'll just laugh it off.

For the most part, there's no reason as for why we need to tell others that we've change or we even our progress. Most people don't really care, and they find it annoying. What define us is not what by how we see ourselves, but how our image is projected to others. Sometimes we are not what we think we are. But that doesn't mean we should ever stop looking for ourselves. Keep improving ourselves, and be a better person today. I think that should be the simple but effective way.

People change because they want to. People also change because they need to. There are some thing that I want in my life now, and I need to change in order to get it. I don't know if it will be going well, but this is the thing where I need to show to certain people that I'll change. It is a thing where I've talked about how serious I am, now I need to show it by actions. I need to consult a few person who have knowledge about this thing, and what changes do I need to make in order to convince those certain people. For this one thing that I desire, I'll do everything. I hope Allah will gives guidance to me on this one, and grants me the strength to overcome all difficulties in this road to my goal. Ameen.


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