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I will be away from my laptop for at least 6 days (Sept 8-13) since my kampung doesn't has internet connection.

I will be in Negeri Sembilan for the rest of the week. Both my kampung are in Negeri Sembilan (Seri Menanti and Dioh), so there are no problems on where to celebrate the first day of Eid. In my ideal world, right now I should be at Madison and celebrating Eid there. But fate decided for me to stay in Malaysia. Well at least I can celebrate Eid with my family :D

This year, after everything that happened, I don't really feel like celebrating actually. I never showed my true feelings, but I am in uttermost guilt to everyone around me, especially my parents. I don't know. I just feel like spending my time during Eid alone. I wish I can just stay alone at home. But I know, I need to face it.

Well I do need to be prepared with bombarding questions from my relatives. I don't know if I am strong enough. Anyway it's my own fault, so I still need to embrace everything that will come.

Anyway, I want to use this time to wish all my families, lecturers, friends and every Muslim out there Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri! I apologize for all my wrongdoings to all of you. If anything I said or did had hurt your feelings, please do forgive me. Yeah, I forgive you too. Your welcome :)

To my friends in Madison, I hope I can be in Madison as earlier as I could. I hope my persuasion to MARA will be accepted so that I can go back there.

To MARA, I learned my lesson, and I promise to change myself so that I can be a better student if I will ever received another chance.

It's kinda messy the way I wrote, and so do my mental state. I need to pack everything to go to my kampung. Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya!


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