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It's Not Really The End

I know that the most tiring semester just ended yesterday
I can see that most of us had already enjoyed themselves
Of course
After all the hard works
Why wouldn't we reward ourselves right?

I don't think it's over for me
Something just don't feel right
I feel like there are still a lot of things that I had left unfinished

Stress and tension are still within my head
I don't think they will go away that easy
My mind is very distorted right now
I don't think the fog will lift just like that

I feel like saying
"Don't disturb me"
But I want someone to come and talk with me
I feel like saying
"I wanna be alone right now"
but I really want someone right beside me

I'm really unstable and somehow moody sometimes
but I'm gonna be okay
I'm feel like want to shout out loud
but I will try to smile, sincerely, and always

Gonna settle the unfinished things
Gonna get back what I had lost
Appreciating what I have
Gonna be okay
Smilling, eventhough it is hard



  1. unfinished business - maryland...
    haisyy... btuah nyer maryland. =(

    still, aku xle enjoy cuti smggu ni dgn sng hati. sigh~

  2. well

    enjoy aa cuti sementare masih cuti



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