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I remember the time where I used to pour almost everything on this site. Whenever I feel down, I write. Whenever I am about to cry or already crying, I write. Whenever I am feeling emotional, I write. Whenever I want to tell something but I can't talk to the person, I write, hoping that that person would read it.

"Still annoying?" she asked. I know the answer to that.

I don't know if I changed much since last time. I do know that I focused more on my studies, being around friends a lot more, and see lecturers more often. But I do less on sports and workouts though. Hurm.

There's only one year left before graduation. Or to phrase it in a better way, there's a whole year left for me to settle what is left undone. It can be short or long depending on what I want to achieve. My second year seems short, because I really want it to end. I want to forget a this one thing that I am not focusing on what is more important. Starting next semester, I want to change that.

Life as a student is short. Let's take our time cherishing and appreciating all the good things that happened and focus on being a better student.

What is a "better student"?


  1. Oh, I thought you dah graduate dah.

    What's a better student you ask?

    IMO, if you feel that you yourself have turned better as compared to your previous self then that is more than enough. Trying to impress other human beings is like one of the most difficult things to do. You can't be on everyone's good side because different people have different opinions and perspective.

    Turning better doesn't necessarily mean that it has to be academic-based; though this is what we commonly use because it is the easiest way of measuring and comparison. Though, keep in mind that 'intelligence' is really a subjective manner. But at the same time, you know that you shouldn't primarily focus on other non-academic stuff too much otherwise it will nullify the reason you entered university in the first place - to study.

    I actually thought you've abandoned blogging.

  2. Nah, I still have one year to finish. Which I can't wait!

    True that. After getting Dean's List for three semester, I wonder if there is any big meaning towards it. I didn't get a Dean's List last semester; overthinking about it may be one of the factor. It seems that I always performed less when I think about the greater goal(s). What do I want to be? What should I do? What should I contribute? Do I need to contribute back? And so on.

    I am still searching for what I want to do in life, and I started to see it a little better. Thanks to a book that I read, which I just finished. It's rare for me to finish a book, really! I hope I'll be more motivated from now on, and know how to bounce back as soon as I fall.

    I love blogging much more that I love Facebook or Twitter. But if only there is more people like you who can give responds to some of my posts haha. I need to blog more and visit everyone else's more often.

  3. It is shocking when I 'finally' discover my senior's blog. I guess now I can add this blog into my reading collection. Haha


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