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Well At Least There Are Some Hope

After more than four weeks of waiting, I finally received some news from MARA. It's not really a good news, but it's not a bad news either. Well let's get straight to the point: MARA won't support my expenses for this semester, and will only continue to support me after I received a good result for this semester. Meaning I need to get GPA above 3.00 for Fall 2010.

I don't think it's a bad deal, after all I'm the one who messed up real bad. First let's talk about how am I going to live for now. Of course, everything will come from my parents. I feel truly awful right now, since it shouldn't happen this way. I could make it a lot easier, by getting a good result. No matter how much I regret it, it was already in the past, so I just need to keep on moving. I know I was terrible, but I won't let it happen again.

Secondly, about my studies right now. So after one month, how is everything? Except Econ 102, I don't have any problems. Arabic? Excellent, plus it's a 5-credit course. Stats 311? No problems, I did better than I thought. Act Sci 300? Sure, it's hard, but I can make it fine insyaAllah. So what's my problem with Econ 102? Nothing really, just having problem understanding the things that I don't know. But I know I'll be fine. I'm making effort to ask a lot from my lecturer and TA. I'm positive, and I believe that I can get 3.00, or even 3.50, as long as I'm not lost on track.

Well this is sudden, but I hope, if you are a student just like, especially if you are sponsored, please do not be too carefree like me or you'll ended up making it hard for everyone around you. Your parents? They will be the one who affected the most. Please, don't let the same thing happen to you. Prevention is better and easier than trying to make everything's right again.

Do pray for me. I too, will always pray for my friend's success.

Edited for grammatical error~ (Wow so many typo + grammatical error! No wonder we need to re-read what we write)


  1. Zafree, sume yg jd ad hikmah. Be str0ng.. Aku b0le jd kuat, k0 p0n mst b0le.. Byk2 d0a yg pntg jgn ptus asa 0keyh.. =)

  2. yeay! all the best la weh! :)

    -mira bazil

  3. Thanks Azleen, Mira, and Nani :)


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