It's a Wonderful Life

p/s: will not be sleeping toight

With the way things are now, there aren't any reasons for me to be sad actually. We should be happy with what we have right now. I know that I shouldn't be overly sad with what happened to me. At least, I should be positive and thankful that I have a lot of chances to let myself be happy. My point is, there shouldn't be anything that can prevent us from being happy. Even in the hardest time, being happy is a virtue. Many good things come from being happy. The best thing is that by being happy, we let those around us to be happy too :) From now on, I'll try to think first before being emotional. I don't want to cause other people to worry about me. I want them to be happy too when they see me happy :) Especially if it is you So, just let go of our worries and do what we have to do!

Come on Zap, keep you anxiety in check! OH MY GOD I can't stop shaking and my heartbeat is at its maximum rate. Please please please stop it. Somehow I think it's funny, while being scary in the same time. Man, I hope this will not last long. Damn I don't know what are my true feelings right now anymore hahahaha

Will be playing futsal and volleyball. Hopefully we can win! The most important thing is to have fun!

The thing that had gone It is just not here anymore Nowhere to be found It disappeared from the core Heart. Hurt. Hard.

Everyday, I have Arabic class at 8:50 am. To be honest, I kinda regret taking a class this early. Like this morning, I didn't wake up until it was 8:42 am. I felt very bad about myself, and thinking abut what should I do today in order to make up for the absent (like sweeping the floor, washing the bathroom or whatever). I feel ashamed of myself for not being able to go to class. Then my housemate woke me up, and said it was "already" 8:20 am. "What?" I said to myself, confused. Owh, I just had a dream of me didn't wake up to go to class. Haha. Then I took a bath, and went to the class. (Lately, I am having a lot of weird dream. Hope it is not a premonition of something bad is coming to me) This week, I have been playing games a lot. This time, it is totally intentional; I really want to play games no matter what. To have fun? To kill time? To forget? To escape? You can name any reason, as I play them for various reasons. I really need to thank him for gi

Today is just a big fail =( It's ok, I'll recover by doing something this evening! My head hurts really bad, like something been pushing my left side of the skull very hard. But I can't rest, I already had enough of it. Maybe I'll take a walk, go to bank, window shopping, think about what to cook tonight and search for my research question. Suddenly I feel like having some hot drinks. Maybe I'll go to Starbucks too.