It's a Wonderful Life

After more than four weeks of waiting, I finally received some news from MARA. It's not really a good news, but it's not a bad news either. Well let's get straight to the point: MARA won't support my expenses for this semester, and will only continue to support me after I received a good result for this semester. Meaning I need to get GPA above 3.00 for Fall 2010. I don't think it's a bad deal, after all I'm the one who messed up real bad. First let's talk about how am I going to live for now. Of course, everything will come from my parents. I feel truly awful right now, since it shouldn't happen this way. I could make it a lot easier, by getting a good result. No matter how much I regret it, it was already in the past, so I just need to keep on moving. I know I was terrible, but I won't let it happen again. Secondly, about my studies right now. So after one month, how is everything? Except Econ 102, I don't have any problems. Arabic? Exc...

I watched the proverbial sunrise Coming up over the Pacific and You might think I'm losing my mind, But I will shy away from the specifics... 'cause I don't want you to know where I am 'cause then you'll see my heart In the saddest state it's ever been. This is no place to try and live my life. Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it. See that line. Well I never should have crossed it. Stop right there. Well I never should have said That it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back. I'm sorry for the person I became. I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change. I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again 'cause who I am hates who I've been. Who I am hates who I've been. I talk to absolutely no one. Couldn't keep to myself enough. And the things bottled inside have finally begun To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up. I heard the reverberating footsteps ...

Dear sleep, just take away my consciousness as soon as you can. I don't want any moment that I can think for myself. Thinking more that he should, Zafree

To my family, and also all my friends and teachers + lecturers, I am truly indebted to all of you for the full support that you are giving to me. I don't know if I am able to pay it while I am still alive. But I promise, as long as I am alive, I will not waste this opportunity that I received, and neither will I forget for all the things that you all had done for me. I am struggling with my studies right now, and I know there a lot more challenges that I need to face, but I will be strong and never give up, no matter what awaits me. "Dear Allah, all of these people have been supporting me with all their might and with patience, and I hope that You can give them the same reward, just like what I received from them. Please bless them with Your light and guidance, as long as they are alive, and even in the afterlife. I am grateful to You that I am surrounded by these wonderful people" Ameen