Don't Mind Me, Ignore Me For Some Time

(EDIT : 1835 11/10)

I am lying to myself by pretending to be mature

But it made me look more childish

I am running from my true self without realizing it

I claim to be an observant person

But I say something without thinking about the consequences

My anger and hatred drove me to do that

I claim to be independent

But there is someone that I always depend on

Now that person is gone, I hope that there is someone out there who can help me forget that person

I claimed to not fall in love again after I had been hurt by the last person

But when someone else try to enter my world, I let that person be

I guess all I need is someone, not just specific one

I always want to win in everything so that I am better than others

But even I don't know what am I competing for

It just made me look that I wanted attention so badly by winning

I guess I'm getting sick

Somehow