I really appreciate how you try to forget all my wrongdoings in the past and try to be in good terms with me, after all that had happened. I am really thankful to have someone like you in my life. I really am. I really want to repay all that by giving you your time and space...But I am ashamed with myself...Why can't I have a stronger heart and the ability to believe? Why am I like this...I feel very bad about myself... I want to talk to you. I want to tell you everything. I want to hear your stories. Why can't I just let yourself be free, having your own time and space... I really hate myself ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- It's really hard to distract myself when all I can think about is you. I only can hope that I can endure this.
My Life Poured As Words