I know, that I will never change, no matter how much I wanted too. I just can't. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Changes shouldn't occur drastically. It's a slow and long process. Will I be able to change one day? Why do I feel like those eyes want me to change as soon as possible? I am tired, with those eyes looking. Or am I the one who have been putting the pressure to myself? I don't know what is wrong with me. Am I overly emotional for a boy? Am I not suitable for a change? Will stay this way forever? Like I said, I thought everything has settled. Now, even MARA decided to not give me my allowance for this month, after they said that they did accepted my request to continue my scholarship. I don't really care, but for how long will I make my parents going through hardships because of me? They must be really sad with me. Am I asking you too much when I just want you to reply to me once?... =( -----------...
My Life Poured As Words