It was the day of festival, where Muslims all over the world celebrates Eid al-Adha. As usual, most people go back to their parents or grandparents house to celebrate it with their family. On Instagram, everyone was posting their best pictures on that day, showing how happy they are with their family, the delicious foods that they ate, or how beautiful their hometown is.
Those posts made me really unhappy.
I don't have any trouble of others being happy. In fact, I believe no one should be overly sad or to suffer from anything bad. The problem lies when I start to compare myself with them. Why am I so unhappy on this day? How can they smile so radiantly while I am here feeling miserable with myself? I can also post some pictures and try to smile as genuinely as I can, but I know deep down inside, I will be mostly faking it.
Being in this world nowadays where there are too much information to absorb (or being shoved to your face), the information that 'everyone is happy with their life' makes me think a lot about myself. Why do I keep scrolling the pages? Why do I need to post something on social media? Is it for the attention? It is for the likes? Is it making me feel better? Or is it making me feel worse?
So I deleted all of my social media app on my phone (Facebook, Twitter and Instagram), just to see whether I will be feeling better or not. After 4 days, I believe I am getting better with my mood. Not everything is suddenly alright (I still have my research paper that I need to write), but I am feeling better with knowing less. The only temptation left is the stories in Whatsapp; I wish I can turn that off. For now, I just deliberately avoiding myself from checking them out.
I don't know for how long I will be taking my time off social media, but for now it feels good to get away from the hell of knowing too much about what others are doing. Perhaps I will stick with blogging, like good old times.
Those posts made me really unhappy.
I don't have any trouble of others being happy. In fact, I believe no one should be overly sad or to suffer from anything bad. The problem lies when I start to compare myself with them. Why am I so unhappy on this day? How can they smile so radiantly while I am here feeling miserable with myself? I can also post some pictures and try to smile as genuinely as I can, but I know deep down inside, I will be mostly faking it.
Being in this world nowadays where there are too much information to absorb (or being shoved to your face), the information that 'everyone is happy with their life' makes me think a lot about myself. Why do I keep scrolling the pages? Why do I need to post something on social media? Is it for the attention? It is for the likes? Is it making me feel better? Or is it making me feel worse?
So I deleted all of my social media app on my phone (Facebook, Twitter and Instagram), just to see whether I will be feeling better or not. After 4 days, I believe I am getting better with my mood. Not everything is suddenly alright (I still have my research paper that I need to write), but I am feeling better with knowing less. The only temptation left is the stories in Whatsapp; I wish I can turn that off. For now, I just deliberately avoiding myself from checking them out.
I don't know for how long I will be taking my time off social media, but for now it feels good to get away from the hell of knowing too much about what others are doing. Perhaps I will stick with blogging, like good old times.
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