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We All Can Change

Someone said to me "What's up with two straight emo post?" Yes, I am aware of that, and you can say I intentionally became emotional to write.

It's nothing more that a satisfaction to myself. Not because I'm talking about someone else, it's because did let go of what I want to say. It's truly emotional, with made up with less than 20% of facts, and the rest are what my emotion telling me what I feel. I don't think that what I wrote is right, and I am aware that it has more chance on being wrong, so whatever. Both are emotionally driven anyway. I don't give a fuck to those who felt that the posts were meant to direct to them. It's not really about who I wrote to, it's about what I want to let go. Don't like it? You are free to leave now. I am a selfish bastard after all.

So that's it about being emotional. I'm happy now.

Right now, my house is almost complete on being a home to me. I have everything that I need, and almost all the basic things that I want. I already bought a TV stand, just installed my internet two days ago, and already have at least two month worth of halal meat/chicken. I love living alone~

My classes are fine, and everything went alright until now. Lecturers are nice, haven't skipped any class (and hopefully will stay that way), I talked a lot in class and handed assignments on time. Considering I'm the only Malaysian in all my classes (except video game class), I think I did pretty well for starters, and will maintain this way.

I still don't have much time to play games, currently busy with a lot of stuffs. I just started working yesterday, so it will get busier after this. My total hour of shifts is 18 hours per week. Yes, I desperately need extra money, or I won't have any money left each month for me to spend.

One more thing I want to talk about. I used to think that I am more of a problem-solving type of person, and I always believe that I am suck at reading. But this semester proved that I am more than what I think I am. 3 of my classes are reading class, and all have many things that I need to read on weekly basis. To be honest, I was afraid that I couldn't keep up. But it turns out the feeling to like something can be developed. Right now, I can't say that I really like to read, but I'm sure that I am more interested to read than I was back then. What I'm trying to say is, we shouldn't categorize ourselves into what we think we are. Explore a lot of things, be open-minded, and one day we are bound to see something about ourselves that we didn't know before. People can always change, if we don't limit ourselves. Go beyond that boundary that we set for ourselves and aim higher, look further away.

We all can change. We all can.

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